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28 February 2010

Nara: Beware of Deer





My interest in Nara actually started last semester during my East Asian culture introductory course at Valpo. I knew Tokyo was the Capital of Japan, and if you look at the way the land is laid out, this makes perfect sense.
Now the largest city in the world, Tokyo sprawls across the Kanto plain on the central Honshu island of Japan. It, like all major cities in Japan, also has a port harbor. Japan is roughly 70% mountainous terrain, and the Japanese have done a great job of not pressing into the mountains to build houses. I am a little surprised; I half-expected to see San Francisco-esque houses perched precariously on cliff edges and mountain sides, but this is not the case. That 70% of Japan remains, for the most part, uninhabited. The 30% of flat land in Japan can be found mostly in the Kanto Plain, which explains why Tokyo is where it is and how it got to be so large: most of the population lives here. The first image is to give the reader an idea of the topography of Japan. The circled area is the Honshu Plain where Tokyo is located.



This second image is a close up of the Honshu plain (Red Circle). Notice how the area looks gray compared to the mountains? The reason for the grayness is that that is all buildings and man-made structures; that entire gray area is the city of Tokyo, which spans nearly 100 miles in any direction. Kind of hard to wrap your head around.


So what am I getting at with this geography lesson? While Tokyo happens to seem the perfect location for a capital city, it is, in fact, not the first capital Japan had. Or the second. Or the third, for that matter. There were a lot of capitals before Tokyo. In fact, 1300 years ago this year, Nara celebrated its stint as the Capital of Japan. Needless to say, there is a LOT of history to this place.

I knew all this before I went to Nara, and still, I had no idea what to expect from the place. Just the day before, my otosan had purchased his brand new car, so he was very eager to take it for a spin. The drive to Nara was only about an hour or so, so it was relatively close. After driving over a small range of mountains (good hiking and picnicking I am told) the land opened up and Nara prefecture lay before us. Interestingly, the minute we left Osaka prefecture and entered Nara , I saw a drastic change. Everything seemed older. Bustling, urban streets and bedroom communities gave way to fields and old wooden houses. I saw open space, the most I had seem since coming to Japan. I tried to speculate if this was an intentional attempt to preserve the way the land was back when Nara had ruled supreme, or if the mountain range I had just crossed really had served as such a successful insulator through the 21st century. I don't really know. The city of Nara did develop as we drove into it, buildings cropped up, and streets became multiple lanes. However, everything had a lazy feel to it. The sidewalks were wider, the cars moved slower, there were more plants here, and you could see to open sky. Downtown Nara was different from downtown Osaka, I was sure of this.

And then, next to the highway, a deer appeared. And then ten more appeared. Traffic breezed passed, seemingly unaware of their presence, and I began to see signs warning about deer. On my right side, the city fell away and a large, large, large park began to open up. Twice in one day, I had seen the most wide open space in Japan. This space was called Nara Park. Nara park had been preserved since its time as the capital. No structures had been built in the ~1,400 acre park, only the original buildings had been maintained, along with some restrooms, of course.





We began our trip into the park along a main walkway, where deer-cracker vendors were surrounded by vulture-deer waiting to pounce on any poor soul who chose to purchase the crackers. For some reason beyond my understanding, the deer would never harass the actual vendor, who had crackers within reach of the deer. They would only strike after someone else had bought the crackers. I think it is appropriate now to show the result of buying deer crackers.

After moving on, I found myself on a long pathway FILLED with people. The walkway was open, with few trees, and it led straight to and through several massive, wooden structures. This is the walkway to Todaiji Temple. I wondered at the architectural though process behind this long walkway. It certainly created a sense of mounting anticipation. When will I finally reach the temple? Each archway on the path there seemed more magnificent than the next, misleading you, making you think that it was the main attraction. My anticipation was prolonged even more when 5 separate middle school students stopped me (clearly foreign) to practice their English and ask me questions about my likes, dislikes, pets, why I came to Japan, etc, all for their English class projects. I must have heard the phrase ,"Excuse me, do you have time?" nearly 8 times. The students were all relieved when I answered their questions in Japanese and then explained their meaning in English to them. I tried to take the time to help them write the proper responses down and give them good information. It's what I would want if I were trying to get a cross-section of the American lifestyle polled correctly.













"Is this Todaiji Temple?"
"No... not yet."
"Ok."





Finally, after a long trip down the pathway full of people and deer and middle school students, we reached the entryway to Todaiji Temple. Todaiji is the largest wooden structure in the world. Wow. It was very overwhelming in size alone. It was also ornate, of course, and I was excited to get closer. Before entering the courtyard, my host family and myself stopped to light some incense. Incense, when wafted up to the crown of the head increases intelligence and also acts as a symbol of good luck. Of course, I burned my hand and dropped my incense; probably a symbol of my imminent doom.






Todaiji was massive. Outside, I made sure to take plenty of photographs. I took a video of me entering the temple as well. Here I am going up the steps and into the temple. The minute you step in and your eyes adjust to the light, you realize that there is a GIANT Buddha staring you down. He is made of cast iron, and everything else surrounding him is equally as gigantic. It must have been difficult to construct in the 700s. After seeing a hole in the temple where the Buddha was gazing,I realized the purpose of the long walkway. The Buddha was gazing out the temple, and down the entire length of the pathway I had just walked. The pathway made sense now. If you were coming to worship the Buddha, he would be watching you throughout your approach.








Inside the temple there were a lot of artifacts and explanations on the construction of the temple. In one area, there was a large sign that read "Please do not deface the sacred property". In the sign's immediate vicinity was a wooden pillar that various people were crawling through and laughing and taking photographs- not irreverent at all! Of course, since everyone else was doing it, I did it too! Thank goodness I am on the smaller side by the American standard, because I barely fit through the pillar.




After all the fun and games in the Buddhist temple (I know, it just sounds bizarre) there was a gift shop that I perused, finding some interesting things. To me, the oddest of these were the sets of Omamori(cloth pouches that have been prayed over to bring good luck or safety to specific items) with the image of the Buddha on the front. Omamori are Shinto charms. Shinto and Buddhism are not the same religion. Yet, inside this Buddhist temple, they were selling Shinto Omamori with images of the Buddha on them. For tourists, no doubt. In other various shops/ gift shops in the park, I also found various dolls, Omamori, and, oh yeah, shurikens. Ninjas anyone?






Right outside of the temple was a statue of this man, whose name escapes me, who was said to have excellent powers in channeling spirits/ energy/ forces. He was immortalized in this horrific looking wooden likeliness. It is said that if you rub a certain part of his body, and then rub the corresponding part on your own body, that any ailments you have will disappear. I had no ailments at the time, but I figured I might as well do it, just for fun. Showing my higher intellect, I rubbed his left knee and I rubbed my right. Promptly the next day, I severely strained my right knee and couldn't walk for 2 days. I am now fully recovered. An interesting occurrence for sure!





I went on to explore other parts of the park and other temples and Jin-jas, but I will save that for my next post, as this one is getting quite long!

I hope you all enjoyed the trip to Nara and Todaiji Temple.

~Sarah

25 February 2010

The Unexpected Yet Oddly Similar

As a foreigner, more specifically, as an American, I have found that regardless (and maybe because of) of our education as children, all that which is not American or familiar in some way is not just different in our minds, it is OPPOSITE. Just like in high school English class, where we are taught that Benvolio and Tybalt are foils, opposites of one another. One is a Montague and one is a Capulet, and the two don't mix. Polar opposites, I guess you could say.

It is with this caution and uncertainty that I pursued my interest in Japan. My entire life, I knew nothing about Japan except what was presented to me through the filter of American popular culture, and even then, I was interested in it because it was so opposite of everything I knew. No one in my family had ever even remotely thought of studying Japan in depth or, even more extreme, traveling to Japan. This is not to say that they are close minded or uncultured or anything of the sort. One reason could be some residual feelings left over from WWII that, until today, I never even considered.

If you look at American history and all the wars we have fought, Japan is the first nation in Modern history, that Americans dehumanized as a nation. After Pearl Harbor, America was at war with ALL of Japan, not just key members. Even during WWII in Europe, America wasn't fighting a war against all of Germany, just the Nazis and Hitler. It wasn't this way in the Pacific theater. As you can see from this propoganda from the times, America unified against an entire nation, and it is hard to see any other modern correlations.




So what am I getting at? The truth is, ever since the war and beyond, the Japanese people have stayed far from our understanding, linguistically and in terms of distance. This American dehumanization of Japan led to a cultural blind spot that we have filled with ideas of an exotic and very different Japan. And on the surface , it does seem to be the case. Japan, by its very nature is a closed country, xenophobic even, compared to America. Japan doesn't tend to bring itself to the international table, and when it does only the drastically different things, the things which arouse the senses because they are novel, make it across the divide. What do you know about Japan? Does you knowledge on the subject pretty much end with one of the following things? It's not uncommon for this to be the case.






So, who are these crazy Japs? (don't tell me as an American you have never heard or used the term yourself) Are they just kimono-wearing, technologically futuristic, tea drinking, sushi eating, silent, expressionless people? I'll admit coming here, the language alone created an instant barrier. THEY were Japanese and I was NOT. Opposites. I assumed they would not laugh out loud or show the vast arrange of emotions that we loud Americans do. Much to my surprise, though our nations don't touch and only intercept when needed, Japanese people and Americans are so similar that I sometimes forget I am in Japan, until I see myself in a mirror. I find myself less surprised every day by the things I thought only happened in America.

Examples: My Otosan loves the Beatles and hates Yoko Ono, though she is Japanese. Moms use those same baby carrying backpacks in Japan. Garbage day is on Thursday, just like at home. (Although the garbage truck plays the ice cream truck song and this is no ice cream truck to speak of). Anything made in China is considered cheap and possibly hazardous to your health. My host mom struggles to figure out how to connect their new HDtv to their DVD player. People eat McDonald's and drink Starbucks even though it is expensive and a waste of money. Women still gossip about their neighbors. Little kids play baseball in the park after school every day. Junior high students are all awkward looking and there is a definite 'cool crowd' and a 'not so cool' crowd. People do react the same to news. Japanese display a wide range of emotions and my parents tend to bust out in laughter regularly (mostly at my fumbling over language). Sudoku. Scrabble. Dressing up your Chihuahua like Paris Hilton dresses hers up. TV reality shows. The travel channel (Last night it was on Italy, so I translated it for my parents). People make fun of KimJunIl. My parents thought the scene with him singing in Team America was hilarious. The politicians are corrupt and they are always on the news. No one here understands why curling is an Olympic sport. People love plain old chocolate. Japanese people feel that America and it's people must be so drastically different; opposites, even.

My point? It's kind of generic, and has been said before, but we are all the same when it boils down to being human. Cultures and habits all have their equivalencies in another culture. People are surprisingly predictable, and tend to follow the same patterns daily, whether it's an American or a Japanese person.

Just some thoughts.

-Sarah.

24 February 2010

Great News!

Exciting news, people. I got the OSI PDT which will help me gain access into the OSI career field, which is very difficult to get into. I am very excited. Along with that news, I received a list of possible bases I could choose from for the qualification of 71SX. They are as follows:

KUNSAN, South Korea
ALTUS, Oklahoma
ANDREWS, Washington, DC
BEALE, California
BUCKLEY, Colorado
CHARLESTON, South Carolina
DAVIS-MONTHAN, Arizona
DOVER, Delaware
DYESS, Texas
YOKOTA, Japan
EDWARDS, California
VANDENBERG, California
ELLSWORTH, South Dakota
EGLIN, Texas
F E WARREN, Wyoming
GRAND FORKS, North Dakota
VANCE, Oklahoma
HURLBURT FLD, Florida
KIRTLAND, New Mexico
MISAWA, Japan
LAUGHLIN, Texas
LUKE, Arizona
MACDILL, Florida
MAXWELL, Alabama
FAIRCHILD, washingon
MCCHORD, Washington
MCCONNELL, Kansas
MCGUIRE, Pennsylvania
KADENA, South korea
INCIRLIK, Turkey
MOODY, Georgia
EIELSON, Alaska
ANDERSEN, Guam
MOUNTAIN HOME, Oregon
POPE, North Carolina
IZMIR, Turkey
ROBINS, Georgia
SCHRIEVER, Colorado
SEYMOUR JOHNSON, North Carolina
SHEPPARD, Texas

Let me know what you would pick! I have my own top choices, but I want to hear yours!

~Sarah

22 February 2010

A Rough Day

Well, while I am glad to have every day that I am given, today was in the rougher area.

I woke up pretty early today (5:30) with some exciting things ahead of me- today was the first day for the running club. I have been running often on my own, the the Kansai Gaidai Running club is a fun group of people led by an American lawyer/ possible alcoholic- turned professor at KGU. The club is designed for people who haven't run more than fifty feet at once in their life, and by the end of the semester, everyone runs at least one 10K (minimum). Everyone who has joined the club has been successful. The club's program is based on the following book, designed by professors in Iowa. http://www.amazon.com/Non-Runners-Marathon-Trainer-David-Whitsett/dp/1570281823 Pretty cool stuff.

The running club meets outside the international students dorms at 7AM, which means an hour and twenty minute commute for me. I do have to say, it was beautiful watching the navy sky melt into pinks and lighter blues on this crisp, Japanese morning. It was my first sunrise in Japan, and yet for a brief moment, I felt like I was back in Mississippi heading to an early morning PT with my flight. Odd flashback, I admit. Things started well, except that the west gate of my campus, which I was hoping to use to cut through to the east gate and the student housing was closed. Problem. Instead, I wound up running the two miles to the student housing in order to make it on time... After everyone had met up, we split up into two groups: intermediate and beginning. The intermediate group began running for the nearby river walkway for a beautiful run in the crisp morning. It was a great trail, and many other Japanese people were beginning their days with long walks, jogs or dog-walking along the same river. The run was going well, and seeing the distance we were running reassured me that it would be a very do-able one. However, just before reaching the turn around point, pain exploded in my right knee, and I realized I had strained my ITB, a common injury with runners, and one I have always had an issue with. Figures, I wouldn't warm up enough and would hurt myself- rookie mistake! No problem, just walk back, stretch it out.

However, as I began my 2-mile and a half walk back to the train station, I realized a complication I hadn't seen before. In America, if my knees started acting up, I would either continue to work out another part of my body, or else I would just drive home and ice it/ stretch it out. However, I was up against a very hilly, long distance, hour-long commute. And by the time I got back home, I could barely walk. I iced my knee while eating breakfast, did some stretches on it, but I was still having some pretty good pain. After soaking it in a hot shower, it felt better, and I could even climb the stairs pretty well. I resolved that class would be a go, and headed out for school again, knowing the relief from the heat of the water would only be temporary. Unfortunately, it was even less temporary than I had hoped it would be. Before I got to school I could barely walk once again.

To make matters worse, I was followed by a shady, toothless Japanese man all the way from the train station. It would figure that because I was running late, I would get off at a station that I don't usually get off at and be followed by a strange man. At first he seemed innocent, simply surprised to see a foreigner. He asked the usual questions, 'where are you from? Are you a student?' Then he started commenting on how young I was, and that I was beautiful. Hm... 'thanks...' Then he started asking thinks like 'would you like to get some coffee now? Do you have a cell phone? Where do you live in town? Do you want me to show you around?' I began responding with 'wakarimasen', which means 'I don't understand'. He then began asking me if I liked Japanese men and if I would like to kiss one. I told him I was married to an American. This is a white lie recommended to us by the University should we encounter shady men because this symbolically transforms us into an off-limits object. He then said I should kiss him and at that point, I dodged into the middle of the road, avoiding traffic, and reached the other side of the road and safety of the campus. The guards at the gates check students, so I knew I was safe after that. Needless to say, I took a different path home, utilizing a different train station.

Also, something I am happy to do turned into a bit of a trial on this rough day. Since I eat very large breakfasts and dinners, for Lent I decided to trade in my lunches for a piece of fruit instead. Today it was especially hard added on to all the other frustrations/ pain I felt.

Needless to say, I will not be running the rest of the week, and probably should not have tried to walk back to school today. My leg is swollen and my entire thigh feels like a rock. That'll teach you to stretch before you run!

I did get some mail from friends today, and mail always makes the day better:) Thanks all for listening to my troubles,

-Sarah

18 February 2010

Fushimi-Inari Shrine, Kyoto

Hello Everyone,

So this particular post is about my trip to Fushimi-Inari Shrine and a little bit about Fushimi-Inari and Shinto religion in General.

My interest in this particular shrine started in my Shinto class that I am taking while I am here in Japan. Shinto is the oldest Japanese religion on record, it is purely Japanese. Contrary to many religions I have studied in America, Japanese religions are tangible, touchable, and solid in the sense that you can go out and see them, touch them and be involved with without the need for an expensive pilgrimage. For example, in class, we had a reading that compared and contrasted two major Inari shrines. The first was Fushimi-Inari, the place where Inari worship first occured around the 8th century. Fushimi-Inari is a half hour train ride away. The second actually happens to be a Zen-Buddhist temple where the image and worship of Inari happened to become inbedded. Inari is a purely Shinto god- the god of rice, the most important crop in Japan.






Inari is one of the most important gods in Shinto, and because of his prevelance in Japan and the nation's shift in economic income sources, Inari also transformed from the god of rice, to the god of business success. The two are obviously correlated, but the rice crop is no longer the foundation the economy in Japan. This is something very interesting about the Shinto religion. It is a very personal religion with absolutely no written doctrine, no head of the religion, so the gods and the practices change and adapt to the needs of each individual, within certain bounds. There are Shinto Priests, who all must have the equivilence of a master's degree, and they do attempt to retain certain key aspects of the religion. However, Shamanism, spirit channeling, also occurs very frequently in the religion. The shamans do not answer to the preists, and often go against what the priests say. However, people tend to listen to both the Priests and the Shaman, causing even more molding and melting of ideals within the religion. Shinto is complex, and my blog would get very long if I explained more. So I will stop at this! (I'll be writing a paper on some comparative facets of the religion later, so if you are really curious, you can read that).




This trip to Fushimi-Inari began around the family Kotatsu after dinner on a Friday night. My host family asked me to make a list of things I would like to do while in Japan, and I made a list of the things that are nearby (I don't exactly want my family having to plan a major trip at their expense) I put Fushimi-Inari on the list because I had read about it the night before. (I don't know if it is possible to convey the feeling of reading about something monumental and realizing that you can just go and see it. You can just walk outside and go see it! America is such a young country with new history) Anyways, the decision was made to go to Fushimi-Inari.

The next morning my Okasan asked if it would be alright if my two 'nephews', Shiyo (6) and Jin (3), came along as well. Of course I was thrilled, I had originally wanted small children in my family, though I am now glad I do not have any. These, however, were my parent's grandchildren, so, just like in America, they borrow them sometimes! So after driving to their Daughters and picking the two oldest up, we headed off to Fushimi-Inari, about an hour and a half away. Neither of the two smaller children had been, though neither of them were into the historical or religious aspect of it, obviously. The car ride was awkward at first. I would be nervous if I was a small Japanese child shoved into the backseat with a big, white American. However, the mood lightened when the boys pulled out their pokemon cards and we started discussing them with one another. They told me the Japanese names of the ones I could not read, and I told them what they were in America. I also learned how to play rock, paper, scissors in Japanese, and I taught them how to play "I spy". Since my vocabulary is small, we stuck with saying we saw a certain color instead of specific objects. Every time I said I spied something gold, the boys would guess my hair was what I was referring to- too cute.

Finally arriving at Fushimi, I was overwhelmed once more by the pure Japanese-ness of this site. I knew Fushimi was a mountain, and as I got closer I realized that the entire mountain was the shrine. The main building was at the foot of the mountain, where the majority of the tourists first came to. Unlike the Buddhist TEMPLE I wrote about before, Shinto SHRINES are drenched in the color orange- a symbol of luck, long life, and all good things in general. At this particular Shrine, you also see a lot of red, a calling card for Inari, the rice god. For someone who hasn't studied Shinto at all, one would also assume that Inari is a fox because there are nearly close to half a million fox statues all over the grounds. Interestingly enough, many Japanese Inari worshipers also think Inari is a fox. However, Inari is not a fox, the fox is another calling card, the messenger of Inari, and also a symbol of malice. People who are ill or who are seeing foxes are said to have an angered fox spirit shadowing them. The cure, you ask? Worshiping Inari, of course.








The Shinto preists were all performing priestly duties while I was there, singing, chanting and reading prayers to the gods and Inari. They were all behind chicken wire cages in the temples, however, and there was no separate worship service going on. This is the norm for a shrine. Though I was fascinated with the detached-ness of the priests, an eerie wailing song drew my attention away. Behind me, on another 'stage' in another temple building, the temple Mikos were offering up a song of praise to inari while beating massive drums and plucking on what looked like harps laying on their sides. The song is called Garaku, I am told, and I can't find it anywhere and I was so mystified by it that I forgot to record it (though video recording wasn't allowed). It was eerie and beautiful. The Miko are young priestesses. They are women who are drawn to the Shinto way and must perform certain ritual dances, songs, etc. The Miko must retire from all Miko work the day they turn 25. Interesting.







After checking out the main part of the temple, I asked where the infamous Tori were. You all have probably seen pictures or heard of the tori. They are those orange archways in aligned into a pathway. Those are from Shinto. A company will buy one for 80,000 USD or more, and the shrine will put it up next to the other tori. The tori will stay where it is until it rots and falls over, at which point you can either buy a new one, or give up your space. There are over 4km of tori pathways at Fushim- Inari. That is a lot of tori and a lot of money! The tori pathway wound through and up the mountain, occasionally opening up to a labyrinth of personal shrines, smaller tori, and fox statues. There are over 30,000 shrines on the Fushimi-Inari shrine grounds. That is a lot of stone tablets and candles and fox statues, let me tell you. The grounds were vast, and the tori pathways pulled you through dense, quiet, green forests, which was unusual- I was so used to the urban sprawl. Many shrines had candles left unattended and lit, and nobody seemed to mind. The entire experience was very religious, and left the me with that feeling of something 'more'. Not That I am going to begin worshiping Inari anytime soon, but when visiting a site like Fushimi the culmination of architecture, forest, folk lore, and the very presence of the Japanese people and their varied beliefs, all steeped in a thousand years of Shinto culture emanate a very strong... presence. It's interesting that 90% of the Japanese claim to not be religious, including my parents, but nearly ever single person participates in some aspect of shinto religion on a daily basis. My own parents have new years wish tablets, Omamori safety trinkets, and certain very Shinto-y phrases that they say every day- to maintain happy balance and good fortune.








The pilgrims on the climb up the mountain were varied and interesting. Two young, strapping American adventurers were bounding, two steps at-a-time, up the stone steps on the tori path, both looked like they belonged on a poster depicting the 'Young American Man'. They both sported Flannel T-shirts over Jeans and sturdy hiking boots along with hikers backpacks and their Nalgene water bottles. It's hard to explain, but Americans become painfully obvious after living with the Japanese for any period of time. There were lots of middle aged people, all enjoying their weekend. Even very old, feeble Japanese men and women were giving the hike to the top of Fushimi their best. They panted and sweated, but were dedicated to reaching their goal. There was also a high school cross country team who was running their way up the tori pathways, I was tempted to join- it looked like fun. From all of these groups, save the Americans, there was a common phrased used with one another, "Ganbarimasu, ganbarimasu." Keep at it.





Finally reaching the top, I realized partially why so braved the steep paths. The view alone was worth it. However, the air up on the top of the mountain was different, it was cleaner, and it filtered out the helter-skelter of all the tourists and picture takers. Those who were willing to put in a good hour and a half of constant climbing were the only ones who were up here. I would do it again in a heartbeat. One could go even further up the mountain, which my Otosan and myself did. The kids were hungry and my okasan was a bit tired herself, I think, though she wouldn't say it. Further up was a large set of more personal shrines featuring a large boulder with the distinctive Shinto grass belt wrapped around it. My Otosan said the kamis (Shinto Gods) used the grass belts, so that is the explanation I will take.






It was a beautiful trip up, and a precarious trip going down. Jin, the 3 year old, had taken quite a liking to me, so he insisted on holding my hand on the way down. He also insisted on running the whole way down because his big brother was running ahead of him. He also quite liked walking on the rock edges of the pathway that usually overlooked a steep drop or cliff face, treating them like balance beams. Our mad dash down the mountain drew a lot of odd looks, and it must have been a strange sight- two small Japanese boys pulling a Caucasian young woman down a Japanese Shinto Shrine in the heart of Kyoto, Japan. In situations like that, you suddenly know how it feels to be in that .5% minority group.

The entire experience was wonderful. I saw a lot of other Kansai Gaidai students at the foot of the mountain, but I will admit, I no longer felt like one of the other students in the dorms. I think during this experience, something new clicked into place. I felt like a different person as I scooped up my nephew and started chatting with him in childish Japanese. It is moments like those that I am so grateful I chose to participate in this home stay. You truly do get to experience Japan in the most straightforward, non-romanticized, and truly authentic way. You are not murmuring to other Americans in English about what you think a certain symbol or practice or building means. Instead, you struggle to formulate your thoughts into a coherent Japanese sentence to ask your Otosan, because you are part of a Japanese family, and no longer simply a college student.